Update 9:15 p.m….I’m counting down till Ethan comes home. I’m so excited I can’t hardly stand it. I’m pretty sure he’ll think that’s crazy. I’m equally sure he already thinks I am! Oh, well…..
Out of the sandbox and back to…..oh, my….Washington, D.C. Is that really any safer?
I’ve got a surprise post for him when he gets home.
I had to run to the grocery store tonight. I saw a very familiar looking car in the parking lot, so I parked next to it. Rachael was shopping.
We just heard that Saddam Hussein has been executed.
I’ve been reading some old posts tonight, and doing a lot of thinking.
Scripture tells us to be thankful in all circumstances.
1 Thess 5:16-18…..16 Be joyful always; 17 pray continually; 18 give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. NIV
I use to think, “How is that possible?” So many things happen in our lives that we don’t feel thankful for. When our daughter, Rachel, died, I wasn’t thankful she died. I was heartbroken. I was devastated. I saw other parents with their children, and longed for my little girl who had died. When people saw us with Brandon, I wanted to say, “But we really have two children!” While the psychologist said I was handling my grief very well, it didn’t feel like it to me. It felt like my life would never be normal again.
But now I understand.
Later, much later, I was able to say I was thankful. Truly thankful. I would not wish losing a child on anyone…..unless it would teach that person a lesson they needed to learn. No..not a lesson I wanted them to learn, but one God wanted them to learn. That’s why God allowed it to happen in our lives. He had things He wanted us to learn. And I am thankful for the things we have learned from the tragedy. We are different people than we would have been if she had not come into our lives, and then been taken.
We learned how to minister to other people who were hurting from losing a child. We can walk through it with people, because we have walked through it in our own lives.
I had a thought earlier, something I already knew, but seemed to really feel it tonight when I thought about it. God walked through that loss with us and knew how we felt, because He had walked through it before. His own son had died, and He knew how it felt.
Now I can say I am thankful for the last 13-1/2 months. Without going into detail, I’ll just say that there was something else that happened then, that made us sad. I never thought I would be thankful for it. But now I really am thankful. I’ve learned things I would not have otherwise learned. Things that would have bothered me for a long time, because I knew there were things that were not right. I’ve learned some things from someone, and realized other things with God’s help.
I’ve spent more time in prayer in the last 13-1/2 months, than probably ever before. And I’ve seen more prayer answered than ever before. Funny how that works.
And I’m not sorry for any of it, because now I can see the good that has come from it.
And I’m thankful for that person.
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